This is faith: When tears are (1)Spilling Over and you're on (2)Bruised Knees, when your heart is (3)Broken and bleeding, you still believe that God's promises (4)Will Be Done and you still fight for (5)Freedom
You ever have something just click? Where you just think, "Whoa, wait a minute, how did THAT happen?" Let me tell you, the night I wrote "Bruised Knees" it was just like that. I knew practically nothing about how to play a set of keys. A friend told me how to build a basic chord and literally 30 minutes later, "Bruised Knees" existed. It was that night that I realized that I could really do this, and more importantly, that it really wasn't me at all. Maybe that sounds crazy, but I believe that God qualifies the chosen. I am grateful for that night every day.
So what did I write my first song about? The message of it is simple: it takes quality time with God to become who you are supposed to be. The strive to become better, to become who you have always wanted to be, to become who you are desperate to be - to be more courageous, to be more confident, to be happy...all of those things don't happen over night. I used to pray to God at night for those things, and then wake up in the morning and wonder why I didn't magically feel like a super-hero. But here is the thing, these kinds of changes take time, they take effort, and they take a lot of time spent in prayer.
Don't get me wrong, I know that journey is a hard one. I titled the song "Bruised Knees" because there is a certain pain associated with the hunger, with the seeking, and with the waiting. That pain is an important part of the process, it's through that pain that we realize who we really are and what is worth working for. It is not easy but it is very, very worth it. Can I tell you now that I am who I want to be? No. Can I tell you I am further along than when I wrote this song? Yes. I am so grateful that God is patient with me, I have to remember to be patient as well. Like a child learns to crawl, then stand, then walk, then run, then dance...we are constantly changing in this life - growing, learning, and believing.
If you are struggling to believe in yourself, if you are desperate for a change - try spending some time with the one who knows you (and your potential) best. He created you, and He will make a new creation in you. Learn His truth about you and let that change your heart.
LB
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