This is faith: When tears are (1)Spilling Over and you're on (2)Bruised Knees, when your heart is (3)Broken and bleeding, you still believe that God's promises (4)Will Be Done and you still fight for (5)Freedom
I remember sitting in a coffee shop in Phoenix (circa 2009) when I first started scribbling down the lyrics to Spilling Over. It was the time in my life when I was just starting to allow God to work the idea of a music career into reality. I was scared. And while the song is ultimately about God's love overflowing out of us in defiance of fear, the feeling I had that night was completely overwhelming.
There is something about the feeling of inadequacy that can literally render us frozen. When we feel like we don't have what it takes, it can be nearly impossible for us to do what it seems like we can't. Doubt is a poison that cripples us from doing what we want most, and when we are in this place it is easy to believe that our fear leads us away from God. All too often, we equate doubt with unbelief. But God is faithful. He swoops in (like the superhero He is) and takes what was once fear and doubt and sadness and fills the space with love and grace and truth. As I continued the song, I realized that - more than anything - I wanted that to be true for me.
When it came time to record Spilling Over, it was important to me that the song sound exposed and imperfect and intimate. Vulnerability and fear and doubt aren't often talked about openly and I really wanted to get across to the listener that this was still something I struggle with. I wanted the song to sound somewhat haunting, and I didn't want it to resolve at the end because the struggle with fear and doubt is really an ongoing battle.
My hope, as you listen to this song, is that you are encouraged. If you are struggling with doubt and fear, please know you are not alone and that you have more ahead of you than you expect. Our fear becomes hope in His hands. This really is just the beginning.
LB
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